Jealous???

Should I be? I read about a woman who is jealous of her family and friends with "normal" kids. It got me thinking should I be jealous too? I'm surround by "normal" people and I'm grateful. I am blessed that no one else in our family has been touched the way we have. While being a special needs Mom is not a road I would of choose, it's a road I'm on. Being jealous or upset about it will not help my child. Understanding of what my child needs and the willingness to do anything possible to provide it is what will help. Sure I wish things were easier, I wish I could have a conversation with my child. At this point, I'd take an "I hate you". My wishes for what will happen in my life do not make me less grateful for what is happening with the "normal" children around me. I may marvel in the stories told by my oldest son, nieces and nephews more then anyone else. I take joy in watching them do something new and that is do to being a special needs Mom.